Salam everyone. Hallu.
I would say, my heart has been poked again. But this time, I don't put any hope coz, only God knows what inside me. I have no idea what has happened to my heart. And I surrender everything to God and go with the flow.
I am grateful to GOD for giving me another chance to experience this feeling.
But,seriously, I'm not clear of what in front of me and I just pray and let God decides for me as I am clueless of myself.
And, for the first time, I feel so nervous to be a leader to my business. And, again I'm grateful to God for the chance given to me. And I feel, this is the right time. Amin. 🙏🙏
Monday, August 19, 2019
Salam everyone. Hallu.
Saturday, June 22, 2019
Hai, me again. Going to talk about my previous post while listnening to Alif Satar song, Penantianku.
Well, that someone seems to distance himself from me. Maybe it's the best. Only God. Knows.
Well, lets move on to a better future
Friday, June 14, 2019
Tuesday, May 21, 2019
Saturday, May 18, 2019
I am still working at my current 'Battlefield'.
Just now, i just received a complaint of 1 out of hundred projects i supervise.
And, the complaint is all over FB. And that is the real situation im facing since im working here.
I feel running away everyday from this job. I have to make everything seems to be perfect and i know i can't.
I have to make sure everyone satisfied in their way.
I have always having a thought of letting go of this job. But, i know, Allah has plan for me,. A better plan for me.
I did applied for a new job where i don't have to face those nasty netizen but I have to wait patiently for that.
Ya Allah, only to u I submit and I pray that the answer will be coming out soon.
I have endure this for more than 3 years and im not going to anymore.
Because, i've changed to someone that i didn't recognise anymore ever since.
Its not that, i am not grateful what Im having now, it just that, I can't do this anymore.
Im lucky to be given a strength from Allah to face all this and its time for me to go.
Ive always thanking Allah for giving me a very understanding family Amway family and friends that always support me.
I quit for my mental health. Im so sick inside and I don't want to drag this any longer. It will kill me by killing the old. ZAKINAH that ive known as a happy person and always believe in herself.
I love myself.
Tuesday, April 30, 2019
This blog is created to share my feelings not for everyone to read but for myself as a diary. Sometime, it would be good to write rather than sharing by talking.
Well, our life seems to be ups and down. Its normal. In my case, i never stop improving myself in term of everything despite having internal and external problem. I know everyone do have their own challenges.
But here, in my own world i would love to talk bout myself.
Well, first of all, I really wanted a job that i don't have to feel trauma just to figure out who is texting me or calling me. I have it now. 😭😭
I pray to God to Allah that soon I can be in the job that I do not have to face that anymore. Maybe its too much to ask, but i would love too.
I feel don't have a control of my life since that 'moment' And im frustrated all the way but im still holding on coz i knew i have my parent's blessings.
But, i just can't anymore coz this job really change me for being me and i hate that.
Ya Allah, i do hope and I pray to You Ya Allah, for this coming holy month of Ramadhan, i'll be given a better place with better surroundings, better colleagues, better job that I can handle with.
Ya Allah, i hope my pray will be answered soon. Ya Allah the Almighty Amin
Monday, May 27, 2013
Me again..well.. today im going to talk bout 'him' again. You can say that i am crazy or what so ever coz i really mad bout him right now..hahaha..It feels like my "LIKE" button in my heart was poked hardly to think bout him lately. The first time when I met him was in 2004. I can say that love at first sight..hahahaha.. And it grows from time to time and I've sent him a lot of regards whenever my friend went to class that time.. As for me, I wasnt serious that time coz, I want to concentrate on my study..DAAAA..Hahahaha. He only knew that the one who always send him the regards went we completed our study and asking me why didnt I told him earlier..Hahaha..Okay. I hope sumthing interesting to be happened soon.
And now I think this is the right time, I hope..(^ ^) ..Well, pray for me guys..
P/s: Dear "him"... I pray so that u will realize soon and contact me, k..