Salam 17 Ramadhan,

Me again. The only platform that I trust to share my feelings. Ya Allah, berikan aku kekuatan untuk teruskan perjuangan ini. Hanya padamu aku berserah.

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Working world right now seems like Battlefield 😪

Hai, Salam Ramadhan ke 14 for year 2019.

I am still working at my current 'Battlefield'.
Just now, i just received a complaint of 1 out of hundred  projects i supervise.
And, the  complaint is all over FB. And that is the real situation im facing since im working here.

I have to be answerable of every circumstances  And im tired of all this.
I feel running away everyday from this job. I have to make everything seems to be perfect and i know i can't.
I have to make sure everyone satisfied in their way.
I have always having a thought of letting go of this job. But, i know, Allah has plan for me,. A better plan for me.
I did applied for a new job where i don't have to face those nasty netizen but I have to wait patiently for that.
Ya Allah,  only to u I submit and I pray that  the answer will be coming out soon.
I have endure this for more than 3 years and im not going to anymore.
Because, i've changed to someone that i didn't recognise anymore ever since.
Its not that, i am not grateful what Im having now, it just that, I can't do this anymore.
Im lucky to be given a strength from Allah to face all this and its time for me to go.
Ive always thanking Allah for giving me a very understanding family  Amway family and friends that always support me.
I quit for my mental health. Im so sick inside and I don't want to drag this any longer. It will kill me by killing the old. ZAKINAH that ive known as a happy person and always believe in herself.
I love myself.

Hai.
This blog is created to share my feelings not for everyone to read but for myself as a diary. Sometime, it would be good to write rather than sharing by talking.
Well, our life seems to be ups and down. Its normal. In my case, i never stop improving myself in term of everything despite having internal and external problem. I know everyone do have their own challenges.
But here, in my own world  i would love to talk bout  myself.
Well, first of all, I really wanted a job that i don't have to feel trauma just to figure out who is texting me or calling me. I have it now. 😭😭
I pray to God to Allah  that soon I can be in the job that I do not have to face that anymore. Maybe its too much to ask, but i would love too.
I feel don't have a control of my life since that 'moment'  And im frustrated all the way but im still holding on coz i knew i have my parent's blessings.
But, i just can't anymore coz this job really change me for being me and i hate that.
Ya Allah, i do hope and I pray to You Ya Allah, for this coming holy month of Ramadhan, i'll be given a better place with better surroundings, better colleagues, better job that I can handle with.

Ya Allah, i hope my pray will be answered soon. Ya Allah the Almighty  Amin

about him

Hai and Assalamualaikum,

Me again..well.. today im going to talk bout 'him' again. You can say that i am crazy or what so ever coz i really mad bout him right now..hahaha..It feels like my "LIKE" button in my heart was poked hardly to think bout him lately. The first time when I met him was in 2004. I can say that love at first sight..hahahaha.. And it grows from time to time and I've sent him a lot of regards whenever my friend went to class that time.. As for me, I wasnt serious that time coz, I want to concentrate on my study..DAAAA..Hahahaha. He only knew that the one who always send him the regards went we completed our study and asking me why didnt I told him earlier..Hahaha..Okay. I hope sumthing interesting to be happened soon.
And now I think this is the right time, I hope..(^ ^) ..Well, pray for me guys..

P/s: Dear "him"... I pray so that u will realize soon and contact me, k..

Love,

Its me

Mr Org Sungai

hai and Assalamualaikum.. i am back after more than 1 year i think..hahaha.so much to talk about but now i am going to talk about 'him'.. I kinda like this guy for quite some time but im not sure bout my feelings towards him before but now i am 3o and i am pretty sure that i have sumthing towards him.i dont think that he knows bout this.. I hope one day he realizes that.. Dear My Org Sungai, I hope u will understand how I feel towards u all these while and I do hope there is a chance for me.. 

Just me..

to invite or not to invite..mmmm

i have this plan with my besties nieza. she said her bf does not like our plan so he is not going to join us. by the way, i have been thinking of inviting that 'someone' to go but i do not know whether he is willing to or not..naaaaa. i am very sure 'he' likes this kind of event and i will try to invite him. its up for him to make his decision then..if YES then i am happy, if NOT try again next time..hahaha...i wish he decides to join us..;D

me again ;p

E for epal..so blurr

hai guys,
usually we speak english at our workplace rite esp if there are different races of collegue. today, my subcon told me that, he is going to cast at class E area. Then i walkie talkie my collegue regarding this matter.Unfortunately, my collegue wrongly heard me and thought that we are going to cast class D instead of Class E.so i repeat,E for Apple(with English pronounciation), then when i think about it again, malay will say EPAL not APPLE..and we ended up laughing together..Ok..next time E is for ...cannot think the things that started with E..hoho

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